Blessings in Change

JUST A TRIM! Hahah. Not.

I have been bored recently… I felt like it was time to do something fun and spontaneous… SO I cut off all my hair (it was legit down to my butt before). This might sound a bit stupid, but my long hair was a big part of me… Many people commented on the length of my hair and it just morphed into a staple “Kathryn look”. I cut it all of for a few reasons:

  1. Cancer. I have so many close people in my life diagnosed with cancer at one point in their lives, my lovely sister/friend Julia (she is fighting leukemia currently). As for myself, and specifically being an insecure teenage girl, I know the attachment to hair that many people use as their “identity”. SO with the 12 inches of hair that was chopped off, I sent it off to donate!
  2. Change. Life has been wild over the past two years. Ha – I cannot even type that sentence without laughing, because life has been utter chaos, yet within this insane chaos there has been so many blessings. As I head into the direction of recovery, and seek more and more help to defeat this disorder I think it is important to have new beginnings, to start fresh, to add some change. Cutting all my hair off was that step for me.
  3. Identity.  In no way am I saying that my hair was who I was, but it was such a normal for me, I just became attached to it. I am learning about the significance in pushing yourself out of your comfort zone and thoroughly focussing on Christ and only Him. After all, He must become greater and I must become less. 
  4. Health. The disorder has taken a toll on my normal body functions, and as many people who fight anorexia face, the disorder thins out your hair. The lack of nutrients is not good enough to sustain  a healthy head of hair. The disorder has made me lose a crap ton of hair. It sucks. BUT I am turning that around, I am start fresh and I am allowing my hair to grow back, when I am healthy and full of LIFE through HIM!

I cry out to the Lord;
    I plead for the Lord’s mercy.
 I pour out my complaints before him
    and tell him all my troubles.
When I am overwhelmed,
    you alone know the way I should turn.
Wherever I go,
    my enemies have set traps for me.
 I look for someone to come and help me,
    but no one gives me a passing thought!
No one will help me;
    no one cares a bit what happens to me.
Then I pray to you, O Lord.
    I say, “You are my place of refuge.
    You are all I really want in life.
 Hear my cry,
    for I am very low.
Rescue me from my persecutors,
    for they are too strong for me.
 Bring me out of prison
    so I can thank you.
The godly will crowd around me,
    for you are good to me.

Psalm 142

1 thought on “Blessings in Change”

  • Wow- this is beautiful. YOU are beautiful, Kathryn! Inside and out (as cliche as it sounds, it’s true). What an amazing statement you just made. He’s got you, He’s transforming you, HE has this, and the enemy has nothing on HIM. You go girl. <3

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